Drop by drop, the revelations of Britney Spears’ memoir are making their way into the media. The singer will publish her memoirs on October 24th (The Woman in Me; in Spanish: La mujer que soy, Plaza y Janés, from the 26th) and if on Tuesday it was people who put forward a long excerpt, she will this Thursday do the New York Times’ turnaround. The magazine had interviewed the singer featured on the cover and previewed the memoir. On the other hand, the New York newspaper allegedly accessed the entire book through a store days before publication.
The newspaper reveals a lot of information about the singer’s career, life and training period, as well as her current life, explaining that she has no intention of focusing on music again, at least in the short term. : “It’s time to not be who people want, but to find myself.” At the moment, it seems that Spears is not talking about her last husband, Sam Asghari, to whom she was married for 14 months until last August was, but about Justin Timberlake. While “People” had already revealed at the beginning of the week that the singer had an abortion after her pregnancy because she did not want to become a father, the “New York Times” now provides further details about the relationship.
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At the time, she was just 21 years old and had been in a relationship with the N’Sync singer for about three years. He quickly recognized the differences between the two, especially on television shows. “Everyone made strange comments to me about my chest, hoping to find out if I had had surgery,” the artist recalls. The pressure began to mount as she got more and more hits, became a star on the then very strong MTV and became the target of conversation and criticism. So he started taking Prozac, a well-known antidepressant. She also explains that at the time she was photographed partying with celebrities like Paris Hilton and Lindsay Lohan, she “never” had a problem with alcohol. She preferred to take Adderall, what she calls her “drug of choice,” an amphetamine-based medication prescribed to people with hyperactivity. “It got me high, yes, but what I liked most was that it gave me a few hours where I felt less depressed,” she says.
Among other confessions, Spears explains that it was he who decided to end the relationship and that he broke up with her via text message, which left her “devastated” and even considering leaving show business . After the breakup, he released a popular song, Cry Me a River, whose video clip featured a blonde woman driving away in a car. “A woman like me cheats on him and he walks around sad in the rain,” she explains, who saw how the press portrayed her “as a whore who had broken the heart of the golden boy of the United States.” “Actually,” he recalls, “I was in a coma in Louisiana and he was happily running around Hollywood.” Later, her father and his team forced her to take part in a television interview in which host Diane Sawyer accused her of causing Timberlake “a lot of pain “to have added. She explains that this is a “breaking point” and that she feels like she is “being exploited in front of the whole world.” She also acknowledges the rumor that she kissed her choreographer while dating the singer, but that her behavior was sparked by constant rumors of Timberlake’s infidelity.
Justin Timberlake and Britney Spears, during the 44th Grammy Awards, in Beverly Hills, February 26, 2002.L. Cohen (WireImage)
Five years later, the episode in which she attacked the car of some photographers and shaved her head occurred, moments that she associates with great sadness due to several factors: her postpartum depression, the divorce from Kevin Federline – the father of her children who has custody for the children, his separation from the little ones and the death of his “adored aunt Sandra”, with whom he had a close relationship. And all this combined with constant persecution by the press. “Because my head was shaved, everyone was afraid of me, even my mother. “During these weeks without my children, I kept losing my mind. “I don’t even know how I could take care of myself,” she suspects.
It was in 2008 when his father Jamie took over his guardianship. She admits that her mental state wasn’t the best, but that she didn’t deserve it. “I know I acted wildly, but there was no reason to treat me like a bank robber. Nothing that justified turning my life upside down,” he says. Infantilized, they didn’t let her make personal decisions or go out at night, they controlled her medication and her phone, but they forced her to work like a great artist. “Too sick to choose a boyfriend, but healthy enough to appear on television every week and sing in front of thousands of people in different parts of the world,” she writes, sharply criticizing her father: “From then on I began to believe that he saw that. “I had come to this world for no other reason than to help him get money.” The artist’s fortune is estimated at more than 60 million dollars. She accuses her former managers of keeping around 17 million and her father of taking around six.
At the end of 2018, Jamie Spears forced Britney into a psychiatric treatment facility for three months. He told her if she didn’t do it he would go to court, it would be made public and she would be exposed to the world. So Spears agreed, and there she lived in a $60,000-a-month facility in luxurious Beverly Hills where, according to her version, she was forced to take lithium like a prisoner: “They kept me locked up against my will” for months .” . He couldn’t go out. I couldn’t drive. They took my blood every week. I couldn’t bathe alone. “I couldn’t close the door to my room.” But there, a nurse showed her some videos that showed her the Free Britney movement, in which more and more followers were calling for her release from parental guardianship. It opened his eyes. “I don’t think people can understand how much the movement meant to me, especially in its early days,” he says.
His release was almost unbelievable for him. He describes the relief as an overwhelming feeling. But he admits that it is still difficult that migraines are common, “part of the physical and emotional damage.” “I don’t think my family understands the harm she has caused me.”