Britney Spears has spoken out about her 13-year stint as a conservator, detailing how her father “controlled her body and her money” and “hurt” her with “fat” taunts.
The 41-year-old singer has hit out at father Jamie, 71, in her explosive new memoir, The Woman In Me, due out later this month.
In excerpts obtained by People, the star spoke candidly about the unyielding control her family exerted over her, which in retrospect “sickens her.”
Britney heartbreakingly admitted: “Feeling like you’re never good enough is a soul-destroying state for a child.”
Britney Spears has spoken out about her 13-year stint as a conservator, detailing how her father “controlled her body and her money” and “hurt” her with “fat” taunts
The 41-year-old singer will attack 71-year-old father Jamie in her explosive new memoir, The Woman In Me, due out later this month
In excerpts obtained by People, the star opened up about the unyielding control her family exerted over her, which in hindsight “sickens her.”
In the upcoming publication, Britney writes, “Growing up, I was watched so much.” Since I was a teenager, I was looked up and down and people told me what they thought of my body. My methods of fighting back were shaving my head and acting out.
“But under the conservatory management it was made clear to me that those times were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back in shape. I had to go to bed early and take all the medication I was prescribed.
“If I thought it was bad to be criticized in the press about my body, it hurt me even more from my own father.” He kept telling me that I looked fat and that I needed to do something about it. ‘
She continued: “The feeling of never being good enough is a soul-destroying state for a child.” He had instilled this message in me as a girl, and even after I had achieved so much, he continued to do it to me.
“I became a robot.” But not just a robot – a kind of child robot. I had been so infantilized that I lost parts of what made me feel like myself.”
The star concluded: “Thirteen years went by in which I felt like a shadow of my former self.” Now when I think back to how my father and his associates had control over my body and my money for so long, it makes me sick…
“I didn’t deserve what my family did to me.”
Jamie took control of his eldest daughter’s life and finances in 2008 after some high-profile mental health issues.
Jamie took control of his eldest daughter’s life and finances in 2008 after some high-profile mental health issues
It started as a temporary arrangement but became permanent at the end of the year.
In the years that followed, Britney was considered good enough to work in what the former estate executor described in court papers as a “hybrid business model” but not good enough to control her private life.
The estate controlled who her friends were, where she could go and “logged every purchase down to a drink at Starbucks,” according to the New York Times.
Britney also told the court that she was forced to use contraception and take medication against her will.
In a court appearance, she told the judge: “Ma’am, my father and everyone involved in this conservatorship and my management who played a big role in punishing me when I said ‘no.’ “ [to going on tour] “Ma’am, you should be in jail.”
Earlier this month it was reported that Jamie would not read Britney’s memoir.
Jamie (previously pictured with his now ex-wife Lynn) kept a relatively low profile after being suspended as head of the conservatory in September 2021 and finally confirmed two months later
This comes after exclusively revealed that Jamie now lives with his other daughter Jamie Lynn Spears (pictured with sister Britney in 2003) following his battle with alcoholism
Sources close to Jamie said he isn’t worried about being “destroyed” in her book since she has already made negative comments about him on social media, according to TMZ.
Britney made headlines about her father a year ago when she said on Instagram: “I really felt like my dad was trying to kill me and I hope he burns in fucking hell.”
Jamie kept a relatively low profile after being suspended as head of the conservatory in September 2021 and finally confirmed two months later.
This comes after exclusively revealed that Jamie is now living with his other daughter Jamie Lynn Spears following his battle with alcoholism.
His parenting deficiencies and struggles with alcohol were previously documented in Jamie Lynn’s 2021 memoir, Things I Should Have Said, and those of his ex-wife Lynne.
Britney’s “The Woman In Me” and its audiobook are scheduled to be released on October 24th.
Elsewhere in the book, she details how she broke into the entertainment scene when she was just 11 years old, and gives a very honest insight into her first kiss with Justin Timberlake.