“Trust me, it’s not worth finding out what it means to forgive only the day you can’t anymore.” This is the meaning of the monologue proposed by Lorella Boccia for “Le Iene”, in which the dancer traces the complicated relationship with her father, who left home when she was 5 years old and then died in 2019.
«I was 5 years old when my father disappeared. I went down the street to wait for him, combing my hair so that it would be pretty for him, while my mother looked for him on the phone and told me: “Look, he’s coming” – Boccia began –. And yet I didn’t see him again for 12 years. We were penniless and Mom had to clean hundreds of houses so I could learn dance. When I was 20 it resurfaced.
However, the rapprochement was only temporary: “He had suffered a heart attack and wanted to say goodbye to me before entering the operating room.” But he survived and this horror made me think I could forgive him, until I happened to meet Francesco, another son from him that I knew nothing about. Francesco had everything: support, money, love… I, on the other hand, only had anger.
The relationship remained unresolved: “I became close to Dad before I got married. I was so happy that I felt like I would forget it. At his house I discovered dozens of photos of me and that perhaps he also felt great pain and shame – the dancer continued. But once again we grew apart, he only wrote me banal greetings, stupid gifs, and that wasn’t enough for me. I was at the Amici studio when I was told he had died. I hugged him until they forcibly took me away.
From this pain came a deep reflection: “That day I understood that sometimes you have to learn to take the best that a person can give you instead of complaining about what they didn’t give you.” Trust me, it’s not worth finding out what it means to forgive only the day you can’t anymore.