Danny Cipriani's estranged wife Victoria has admitted in a poignant post after her marriage split that her year didn't turn out the way she “expected”.
Former rugby union player Danny, 36, and Victoria announced their split in a social media statement last month and she has since said she “knew it was coming”.
Victoria was said to be “disappointed” when she saw her ex Danny sharing cozy snaps with his Strictly partner Jowita Przystal after their split.
Now, in a cryptic post she shared on Instagram on Friday, Victoria has reflected on her past year and how she let the “pain of the past” “dictate” her future.
She posted a black-and-white selfie of herself smiling with her dogs and reflected on overcoming some “dark moments” in a lengthy caption.
Danny Cipriani's estranged wife Victoria has admitted in a poignant post after her marriage split that her life hasn't turned out the way she “expected” this year
In an Instagram post, she shared a black-and-white selfie of herself smiling with her dogs and reflected on overcoming some “dark moments” in a lengthy caption
Victoria – who has two children from a previous relationship – admitted she had been “suffering” in recent weeks and spoke about choosing “fear over love” and “rewriting” her story.
She wrote: “Life didn’t turn out the way I expected this year; However, next year it will happen. I wanted to share with all of you what I learned this year because I think my story will help many and I intend to help many.
“We all live on autopilot, moving on to the next thing without ever showing love and gratitude for the moment.” If I could use the knowledge, love and peace I have found within myself to tell my story rewriting it would be a different story.
“I've spent the last few weeks looking at myself in the mirror, and boy, was it HARD!” The truth is that I was deeply flawed in most areas of my life; Despite everything I portrayed, I never felt like the best mother, wife, or friend.
“I never had it in my heart because I could only love from the ability to love myself, and in truth that wasn't much.” All of this love was thrown at me in all directions, to the point where I never had room to love myself anymore.
“I had allowed all the painful experiences of the past to dictate my future and overshadow my being in the present moment.” I was a stress head; I was reactive and impulsive, constantly worrying about all the situations that might happen in the future, not realizing that this moment was all we ever had.
“I have never lived in the moment, neither in truth nor in agreement.” I was a feminine woman living in entirely male energy. Eventually I was out of sync. It's ridiculous considering we live like this every day, in complete fear and hiding our true selves.
“We choose to choose fear over love.” Over the last few weeks I have suffered and I have allowed it. I allowed myself to feel everything I needed to walk through the darkness.
Victoria – who has two children from a previous relationship – admitted she had been “suffering” in recent weeks and spoke about choosing “fear over love” and “rewriting” her story
Web exclusively revealed that Danny and Victoria ended their relationship two weeks ago after a series of “difficult” arguments over text messages on his phone
“I had some dark moments. I also had the best people by my side to accompany me through the darkness. The gratitude I feel for them fills my heart with love, because in fact, in moments of pain, the universe reveals to you who your people are. Love is everything.'
Her latest post comes after Victoria previously insisted she “knew it was coming” as fans questioned her about how she was coping with her and Danny's split.
She said, “That's probably the question I get asked the most at the moment.” I knew it was coming. I'm ready for it. Acceptance, let it go with love.
“Embrace the pain, endure it, let it wash over you, and feel it deeply; It is a necessary part of the process. Meditate, sit with your emotions, let them rise and fall, and watch their transformation and eventual release.
“I meditate on an acupressure mat – I highly recommend it.” Listen to your thoughts, but don't let them define your reality. You can create your next moment.
“How are you going to choose it?” Use all the pain as a catalyst to move forward, see it as a lesson, and approach your lesson with love and gratitude. It's your chance to be reborn!!'
Victoria was reportedly left “disappointed” when Danny shared some snaps from rehearsals with dancer Jowita.
Danny took part in this year's Strictly Christmas special with Jowita and posed with her for several cozy photos behind the scenes in the studio.
A source told The Sun: “Victoria was disappointed when she saw the pictures of Danny and Jowita.” It's only nine days since Danny announced on Instagram that they had split – which Victoria had no idea about.
“That was stressful enough for her.” But seeing her husband so close to another woman is absolutely heartbreaking for her.”
Her latest post comes after Victoria previously insisted she “knew it was coming” as fans questioned her about how she was coping with her and Danny's split
Victoria was said to be 'disappointed' when she saw her ex Danny sharing cozy snaps with his Strictly partner Jowita Przystal (pictured) after their split
Web had exclusively revealed that after a series of “difficult” arguments over text messages on his phone, Danny and Victoria ended their relationship and he was set up with Jowita nine days later.
At the time, Danny released a statement to announce the news, telling his Instagram followers that he wished his ex “only the best.”
Victoria has since shockingly claimed in a since-deleted post that she was “made aware of the situation at the same time as the public.”
The media personality spoke about the difficult time and apologized for her “emotionally charged reaction.”
She wrote: “Danny publicly announced our separation without prior notice or discussion with me.” At the same time as the public was made aware of the situation, it caused me great pain.
“I apologize if my reactions and responses seemed reactive or emotionally charged.”
“The truth is, I'm still going through a difficult time and it's challenging for me to see Danny speaking publicly about our breakup while I haven't yet found the strength to process it, adjust or heal.”
Victoria concluded: “I really don't want to get caught up in the fanfare. 'I'm sorry for the harm I've caused.'
The couple, who tied the knot in April 2021, are expected to hire a divorce lawyer following their split.
Danny released a statement to announce the split, but Victoria has since claimed in a now-deleted post that she was “made aware of the situation at the same time as the public.”
A source close to the couple revealed that everything was fine in the marriage until the summer.
But the source said: “Victoria has been increasingly unhappy over the last few months. Things got tense and then she saw some text messages on his phone which led to a heated argument between them and now they have broken up.”
The former England rugby star has moved out of his home in Kent and is living at a different address, although he was seen visiting there last week, the source added.
“They are both devastated by the breakdown of their marriage,” the source said.