Miller says he tried to kill himself before the start of last season and praised Ohio State head coach Ryan Day for the immediate support he provided when an offensive linesman told him about it.
“Normally I wouldn’t share this kind of information,” Miller wrote in a two-page tweet. “However, since I played football, I am no longer afforded the privilege of privacy, so I will briefly share my story before other articles continue to ask, “What is wrong with Harry Miller.”
“This is a good question. That’s a good enough question for me not to know the answer, even though I’ve asked it often.”
Miller says Day introduced him to two doctors who gave him support. A few weeks later, Miller tried to play football again with “scars on his wrists and throat”.
“Maybe the scars were hard to see because of the wrapped wrists,” he continued. “Maybe it was hard to see the scars through the bright colors of the TV. Maybe Scars was hard to hear on all the talk shows and interviews. They are hard to see and easy to hide, but they really hurt.” .
“There was a dead man on TV, but no one knew about it.”
Miller says that at the time he “would rather be dead than a coward” and was afraid to lend a helping hand due to the backlash he saw in others in his position.
“I saw the old adage about our generation softening by the second, but I can tell that my skin was tough,” he says. “It should have been. But it was no stronger than the sharp metal of my utility knife.
“And I saw how easy it was for people to dismiss others as just stupid college kids who didn’t know anything.
“But luckily I’m in an engineering college and have a 4.0 and any accolades you might need, so maybe if someone’s pain can be taken seriously for once, it can be mine.”
Miller, a former five-star recruit, says Day is helping him find another way to help other members of the Ohio State football program who may also be experiencing mental health issues and expressed hope that “athletic departments across the country will do the same.” . .”
“If it wasn’t for him [Day] and the staff, my words will not be a reflection,” says Miller. “They will be evidence of an autopsy.”