Kelsey Parker has said she may never be the same following the tragic death of her late pop star husband Tom Parker.
The Wanted singer Tom died in March this year at the age of 33 after a year and a half battle with stage four glioblastoma brain cancer.
Speaking on the fifth episode of her documentary series Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom on Thursday, she said the trauma she experienced during Tom’s illness and since his death changed her forever.
Heartbroken: Kelsey Parker says she may never be the same after the death of her late pop star husband Tom Parker
Describing how she feels when people ask how she’s doing, she said: “Obviously I’m not fine, I’ll never be the Kelsey I was two years ago and that’s about it.
“The trauma I suffered is beyond anything anyone can imagine.”
Kelsey – who shared children Aurelia, three) and Bodhi, two, with Tom – recalled the heartwarming moments she shared with Tom as the couple envisioned what their future life would be like when they grew older together.
Honestly: Speaking on her documentary series Kelsey Parker: Life After Tom on Thursday, she said the trauma she experienced when Tom was ill and since his death changed her forever
RIP: The Wanted singer Tom died in March this year at the age of 33 after a year and a half battle with stage four glioblastoma brain cancer (Tom and Amy with their children Aurelia, three, and Bodhi, two).
She said they often look at other couples and imagine being like her for years to come.
During a therapy session on the program, she said: “I just wanted to be with Tom, grow old together, sit on a bench and eat buns.
“When we went out, we said, ‘This will be us eating fish and chips on a bench.’
Throwback: Meanwhile, Kelsey recalled the heartwarming moments she shared with Tom as the pair envisioned what their future life would be like
“This isn’t what I had in mind for my life and it upsets me because I wanted it so badly.
“This is mine — not a new life — but this is my life and I’m moving on.”
It comes after Kelsey said she believes her late husband would be “happy” if she found love again after his death.
Dream: She said they often look at other couples and imagine being like them in the years to come
The widow broke her silence after it was revealed that she is now in the early stages of a relationship with new man Sean Boggans.
In an episode of her documentary earlier this week, Kelsey opened up about how she thought Tom would give her his blessing to find someone new, with the actress stressing she was “so young”.
When asked by one if she thought Tom would be “happy” to see her continue on her show, Kelsey replied, “We didn’t really have those conversations, but knowing Tom, I have a feeling he’d be.” would be happy for me.
“He would only want me to be happy. And I’m so young.”
Faith: It comes after Tom’s widow Kelsey revealed she believes her late husband would be ‘happy’ if she found love again after his death
Another widower said to her, ‘He would want you to live a full life.’
It comes after it was reported Kelsey had started a new relationship nine months after her husband’s death.
Kelsey and Sean, a father of two, are said to have met when she was on a break with friends in Lindos, Rhodes, in September.
“It’s very early days and no one knows what the future will bring, but right now Kelsey is happy that someone else has come into her life,” a source said.
It was also revealed that electrician Sean was jailed in 2013 when he killed a stranger with a single punch while waiting outside an east London taxi.
The influencer, who has been with Tom for 13 years, recently admitted she was “jealous” of widows who spent up to 60 years with their husbands before her death.
She said: “I don’t think losing a partner is easier at any age.
“Some of them have been together for 60 years. You lose that partner and I think that must be absolutely heartbreaking.
“There’s never a good age to lose your partner, your best friend, and the love of your life.”
New connection: Kelsey is now in the early stages of a relationship with new man Sean Boggans (pictured)