It was a painful moment in Bianca Balti’s life, but one she learned to deal with: “It was a dysfunctional life“I wasn’t happy, but I’m only realizing it now,” she says today with a cool head. She was very young when she left Lodi to move to Milan to pursue her dream of making it as a model. Fashion shows, social events, a sparkling life and then meeting assistant photographer Christian Lucidi.I got pregnant after just three weeks. After a month he asks me to marry him,” she says.
The first marriage failed – “I lived everything from day to day, I decided to be a mother and wife after a year and a half since the beginning of my career. A crazy thing,” confides Bianca Balti in the podcast. They move to New York and Matilde, now 16, is born of the relationship. However, their love doesn’t last: “I got carried away with the enthusiasm but the truth is he was very possessive and nagging. It wasn’t a healthy relationship“. She and her daughter return to Italy to resume the interrupted lifestyle: “I’m starting over with the holidays. I left my daughter with her grandparents in Lodi and me I went from man to man through drugs“.
Matilda’s choice – After three years, Bianca Balti understands that this was not the life she imagined and moves to Marbella, Spain with Matilde. There he meets the American Matthew McRae, who would soon become her second husband. They decide to start a new life together in the USA, but the road leads uphill. “I ask the Spanish court for permission to take my daughter to America, but they refuse. My lawyer tells me, ‘Look, they’re going to ask her where she wants to live, with you or with her father.’ So I ask her and she answers ‘with father‘”. A real cold shower for the model: “One of the worst moments of my life”.
pain and rebirth – “It hurt me so much. I hadn’t taken drugs for three years, but I understood that Matilde wasn’t ready to forgive me,” confided Bianca Balti. Now that Matilde is older and more composed and aware, their relationships have also improved and they are united. The girl often accompanies her to Los Angeles, where the model lives with Mia, the second child born of the marriage that broke up just a month after the wedding Matthew McRae. About her eldest daughter she admits: “She didn’t want to live with me because I was a mess. But then it was very difficult to understand that the damage I had caused her, apart from the efforts I had made to change, had prompted her to make that decision.
The relationship with men – Looking inward, Bianca Balti understood a lot about herself and what prompted her to make certain decisions: “I’ve always married men, for whom I’ve always paid everything. today I pay alimony for both of them my ex-husbands, but that’s right, I’m the one who earns the most. As I know it now, after years of therapy, I know I did it to have a sense of control in the couple.”
A new life – After years of pain and torment, Bianca Balti is now a resolute and conscious 38-year-old. She resorted to egg freezing to ensure the possibility of becoming a mother again, possibly even without a partner. She then faced removal of the ovaries and fallopian tubes to avoid the risk of a tumor following diagnosis of BRCA1, and resorted to a double mastectomy for the same reason. The dark times are now behind us: “I’ve hit rock bottom and I’ve said enough,” he had revealed in the past about his failed story Sal Lahoud and ready for a fresh start. She shed the weight of the past by telling the whole world, and now she’s ready to move on. New Year New Life.