‘My whole body started convulsing’: ‘Lewis Capaldi feared he might never perform again after his mental issues and convulsions got ‘out of control’
Lewis Capaldi has revealed he feared he might never perform again after his mental issues and convulsions got “out of control”.
In his upcoming Netflix documentary, the singer admitted that he started suffering from excruciating back pain that left him unable to even write new music.
In scenes from the documentary, obtained by The Daily Star, Lewis confessed he was having trouble remembering his 2020 tour because he was “so scared” and began to suffer from severe panic attacks.
He said: “The convulsions were getting out of control, it was awful, absolutely awful. I started worrying about it, you know that pressure about things. Instead of me just singing my silly little songs, other people rely on me.’
“My twitching gets worse when I sit down to play the piano, physically painful. And I get really short of breath and it’s like my back fuck is gonna kill me if I do it.
Candid: Lewis Capaldi has revealed he fears he may never perform again after his mental issues and convulsions got ‘out of control’
Commenting on his panic attacks, the BRIT Award winner added: “It feels like I’m going insane. Completely detached from reality.
“I can not breath. I am getting dizzy. I’m sweating, my whole body is starting to cramp. Either I feel like I’m going to hold on to it forever, or I’m going to die.
Lewis later sought help from a therapist, who suggested his anxiety might stem from the loss of his grandmother and his aunt’s suicide.
After undergoing further testing, Lewis announced he was diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome, which gave him much-needed relief and helped him reduce his anxiety and ease his symptoms.
Lewis will release his raw and candid feature-length music documentary How I’m Feeling Now on Netflix on April 5th.
He’s been open about his mental health issues, being diagnosed with Tourette, and living in the spotlight.
In the trailer, the singer squirmed when his mother recalled having to pick him up from a one-night stand after he suffered a panic attack.
“It’s not a story that needs to be told,” he said as his mother related the awkward incident, laughing into the camera.
Woes: In his upcoming Netflix documentary, the singer admitted that he started suffering from excruciating back pain, which left him unable to even write new music
She said, “Needs to be picked up by your mum from your one night stand because you’re having a panic attack.”
Only for Lewis sarcastically replies, “So glad you brought that up”.
Directed by BAFTA winner Joe Pearlman, the all-access documentary follows Lewis Capaldi at a pivotal moment in his career following the worldwide success of his debut album.
And the trailer shows how he’s struggling with the pressures of his fame while the world waits for new music.
It will also address his Tourette, after the megastar bravely revealed his diagnosis to the world last year.
Speaking about the film on Instagram, he wrote, “The film is called ‘How I’m Feeling Now’ and is named after a song I wrote that will be released at midnight on March 17th.”
“It’s the last song I wrote for my upcoming album, and it’s a tune that’s about something I’ve never really written about in my music, which is my mental health.”
Moving: Lewis will release his raw and candid feature-length music documentary How I’m Feeling Now on Netflix on April 5
It comes after Lewis revealed he battled vertigo and admitted he thought he was going to die “for a couple of days” while suffering from the disturbing symptom.
Lewis unveiled his latest health struggle on Thursday at Glasgow’s Everyman Cinema as part of a special screening for his upcoming Netflix documentary.
Speaking to fans, he said: “I live and live. I’m not feeling very well. i have dizziness So I turn but I smile. I’m not dying, so it’s good. I thought I’d be there for a few days but luckily I’m here.’
Dizziness is more of a symptom than a condition itself. It is the sensation that you or the environment around you is moving or spinning.