Megan Fox appears to be describing a devastating miscarriage with fiancé Machine Gun Kelly in her new poetry collection, Pretty Boys Are Poisonous.
In the book “Pretty Boys Are Poisonous,” Megan writes, using excerpts from People, about an ultrasound scan of a baby girl at 10 weeks and one day old, saying, “Maybe if you hadn’t done it… maybe if I… “’
She continues, “I want to hold your hand/hear your laugh, but now/I have to say goodbye,” later adding, “I close my eyes and imagine myself holding you tight to my chest as she hugs you.” tear from within me.” ‘.
Elsewhere in the book she writes, “I will pay any price.” Please tell me / what is the ransom / for her soul?’
The 37-year-old Transformers alum said she’s “never experienced anything like this in my life” as she discussed the experience and writing the book in an interview on Good Morning America on Tuesday.
Opening: Megan Fox revealed her devastating pregnancy loss with fiancé Machine Gun Kelly in her new poetry collection, Pretty Boys Are Poisonous
Painful: The 37-year-old Transformers alum said she’s “never experienced anything like this in my life” as she discussed the experience and writing the book in an interview on Good Morning America on Tuesday
Poetry of Pain: In the book, Megan writes about a 10-week ultrasound and says, “I want to hold your hand/hear your laugh, but now I have to say goodbye,” and elsewhere she adds, “I’m closing.” my eyes and imagine holding you tight to my chest as they tear you from inside me.
“It was very difficult for both of us,” she explained. “And it sent us on a very wild journey, together and apart, together and apart, together and apart, together and apart, trying to navigate: ‘What does this mean? Why is that happend?”
The couple have been in an on-again, off-again relationship since 2020, and the film star said it was the singer – real name Colson Baker – who encouraged her to put pen to paper.
“The person who actually told me to write a book of poetry is Colson,” she shared. “There was something inside me that had to come out or it would make me sick.” Some of this is definitely a metaphor. None of this is, I would say, fictional. These are all real life experiences that I’ve had.”
Although neither Megan nor MGK have yet confirmed the pregnancy loss, the “Bloody Valentine” hitmaker seemed to allude to it at the Billboard Music Awards in May 2022 by dedicating his performance to Megan and adding, “This is for our unborn child.”‘
On GMA, Megan said the pregnancy loss was made even more difficult because she had already successfully given birth to three sons with ex Brian Austin Green, 50: Noah Shannon, 11, Bodhi Ransom, 9, and Journey River ( 7).
The “Jennifer’s Body” vet also wrote in her poetry book about themes of abuse and toxic relationships, which she said were present throughout some high-profile romance novels.
“It’s not an expose that I wrote, nor a memoir,” she told GMA. “But over the course of my life, I have been in at least one physically abusive relationship and several very psychologically abusive relationships.
“I was only publicly connected to a few people, but I shared the energy, I guess you could say: [with] People who were terrible people. Also very famous. Very famous people. But no one knows that I had anything to do with these people.’
Impetus: The couple have been in an on-again, off-again relationship since 2020, and the film star said it was the singer – real name Colson Baker – who encouraged her to put pen to paper
Reflection: Megan said the pregnancy loss was made even more difficult as she had already successfully given birth to three sons with her ex Brian Austin Green, 50
Proud mom: Megan and Brian share Noah Shannon (11), Bodhi Ransom (9) and Journey River (7).
“Some of this is too much when you’re a well-known person. “If I had had the freedom to just be a poet and people didn’t really want to delve too much into my personal life, I would have included more entries like this.”
Megan also said that some painful experiences she laid out on paper never made it into the pages of Pretty Boys Are Poisonous.
“I wrote a lot of things that didn’t make it into the book,” she added. “I thought, ‘Maybe this is only for God’s eyes.’
Regarding the decision to share difficult moments in a book, Megan said she wanted to inspire other women to find strength in using their own voice.
“Because it gives your pain an elegant place to live, translating it into art makes it useful to other people,” she said. “So that you don’t suffer alone.”