Molly-Mae Hague has spoken about how she has changed as a person since she first found fame on Love Island in 2019.
The 24-year-old influencer shared a new YouTube video this week in which she opens up about wanting “different things” in life and feeling like she’s “not myself.”
She first found fame four years ago when she appeared on the fifth season of Love Island, finishing second alongside her now-fiancé Tommy Fury.
Molly-Mae admitted she gradually changed over the next four years, saying she “declined psychologically” during her childhood, building her career and the birth of her eight-month-old daughter Bambi.
Addressing her followers, she began: “Right now I’m having a midlife crisis.” And the fact that I’m having a midlife crisis is confirmed by the fact that I’m sitting here with a coloring book and crayons.
Different: Molly-Mae Hague has spoken about how she has changed as a person since she first found fame on Love Island in 2019
Rise to fame: She first found fame four years ago after appearing on the fifth series of Love Island and coming second alongside her now-fiancé Tommy Fury (pictured in 2019).
Edited: The 24-year-old influencer shared a new YouTube video this week in which she opens up about wanting “different things” in life and feeling like she’s “not myself.”
“I need an activity that doesn’t involve scrolling on my phone.” I need something that doesn’t involve my brain. I think coloring is just the thing for that.
“I just feel like I’ve really broken down mentally.” Since having Bambi, I’ve been feeling really bad physically.
“Mentally, physically and emotionally I just feel like I’ve been on another planet and I can’t even say why. I just wasn’t myself, I don’t know why.’
Molly-Mae continued: “Sometimes I look at my videos and think, ‘I’m so good, I’m good!’
“And in the vlog after that, I’m like, ‘I feel so bad, I’m so sad, I can’t stop crying.’ That’s me, and I think that’s maybe what being a woman means, being a human being.
“I feel like I’ve become a different person lately and I don’t think it happened overnight.” I think gradually as I’ve grown up and over the last four and a half years of my career, that I do now.
“I’m just changing and wanting different things.” Do you ever feel like you’re not in sync with where you are right now and you suddenly want to change everything in your life?
“You want to change the way you look, you want to change the way you work, you want to change what you do every day, you want to change your routine, the way you eat, the way you exercise – literally you want to change everything.
Life changes: Molly-Mae admitted she gradually changed over the next four years and says she “fell off mentally” as she grew up, built her career and gave birth to her eight-month-old daughter Bambi (pictured)
Huge: Elsewhere in the vlog, Molly-Mae discussed dealing with 24-year-old Tommy, who is in training camp as he prepares to face rival KSI at the AO Arena in Manchester on October 14 (Tommy and KSI pictured in August).
“That’s exactly where I’m at right now. I just feel like it’s such a transitional moment in my life and I’m so excited.”
She then teased that she’s currently working behind the scenes on a huge new project, saying it’s the biggest thing she’s done in her career, but she can’t reveal it yet.
She said: “I’m working on something that’s the most exciting thing in my entire career.” It doesn’t even compare to anything I’ve done before. I’m sad I can’t talk about it.’
Elsewhere in the vlog, Molly-Mae spoke about dealing with 24-year-old Tommy, who is in training camp as he prepares to fight rival KSI at the AO Arena in Manchester on October 14.
Admitting that it was hard to be apart for so long, she expressed her nervousness about the argument, saying that she was “really trying not to think about it.”
But she added: “It’s week eight or nine where we no longer live together and only see each other on weekends.”
“I’m very ready for some normality now. I always find that in the end we both reach the point where we have had enough and it is a very difficult environment for him.”
Molly-Mae has made it no secret that she doesn’t like watching Tommy in the ring and stayed away from the TV during his fight with Jake Paul in February.
Worried: Admitting it was hard to be apart for so long, she expressed nervousness about the argument, saying she “tried very hard not to think about it.”
Smackdown: Molly-Mae has made it clear that she doesn’t like watching Tommy in the ring and stayed away from the TV during his fight with Jake Paul in February
When she heard about his win, she burst into tears, but couldn’t bear to actually see Tommy in the ring.
She remained in the UK with Bambi, who was born just weeks earlier, while Tommy headed off for his highly anticipated showdown with Jake.
But she didn’t watch the fight on TV, instead her sister Zoe shared a clip of her taking refuge in her bedroom as her family and friends watched the fight.
As Molly-Mae watched Tommy fight Daniel Bocianski last year, she admitted she finds it “terrifying” to watch her partner get beaten in the ring.
“I don’t really watch him – I watch the screen, that’s my way of dealing with it,” she told BT Sport at the time.
“Seeing him in the flesh feels a lot harder.” “I watch him on the screen and that eases the stress a little, but I have nail marks on my arm where they’re embedded.”
“It’s just terrible.” Honestly, I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. The fear of watching yourself in the ring is not nice. It’s really not,” she added.
Tommy recently praised Molly-Mae for supporting his career even though she “hates” the sport and revealed she only “tolerates” boxing because it makes him happy.
Praise: Tommy recently praised Molly-Mae for supporting his career even though she “hates” the sport and revealed she only “tolerates” boxing because it makes him happy
Tough observation: Tommy admitted he understands how hard it must be for Molly-Mae to watch him get beaten in the ring
He said on BBC Breakfast: “She watches the ground while I fight. “She only tolerates boxing because she knows how happy it makes me. That’s it.
“Otherwise she hates it. She doesn’t like to talk about it, she doesn’t like to look at it, nothing I can understand.”
Tommy admitted he understands how difficult it must be for Molly-Mae to watch him get beaten in the ring.
“She watches her partner, the father of her baby, get in the ring, fight and get beaten up,” he continued.
“It’s not a nice feeling to go through that, so I recommend she do that.”