Rylan Clark has opened up about his two stints in a psychiatric hospital after attempting suicide, revealing his physical health deteriorated to the point that his mother thought he was having a stroke.
The 33-year-old TV star has revealed in his new book that he felt he “couldn’t go on anymore” when his ex-husband Dan Neal left him last year after six years of marriage after Rylan told him he had him cheated .
And in a new interview, Rylan revealed he soon after spent some time in a psychiatric hospital where the walls didn’t have sharp edges, and how his mental and physical health declined so quickly.
Heartbreaking: Rylan Clark has opened up about his two stints in a mental hospital after attempting suicide (pictured in January 2019)
Rylan revealed he had been unfaithful to his now-former partner “years ago,” but when he got clean in May 2021, Dan told him their relationship was over and he moved out after six years together.
Speaking to The Sunday Times Magazine, Rylan said, “I’ve gone through this period where I’ve been upset that I’m waking up,” Clark says. “All I could think about was, ‘How am I going to do this? It was sick.”
After the collapse of his six-year marriage, the TV favorite had to stay out of the spotlight for five months due to his deteriorating health.
He previously claimed to have fallen on just nine stones, which led to him being taken to hospital for “safety reasons” after refusing to eat.
At one point, his low weight meant his physical health became so poor that his mother, Linda, 70, thought he was having a stroke since his speech was so slurred.
Sad ending: He previously claimed to have fallen on just nine stones, which led to him being hospitalized for “safety reasons” after refusing to eat while splitting with Dan (pictured in 2017).
He further told the publication, “I got into this thing called SVT [Supraventricular tachycardia], where my heart rate was more than double. And it just wouldn’t stop.
“It feels like a different person to speak of now. I didn’t know who I was during those five months.
“But yes, I have [try to end his life] – unsuccessfully, fortunately. I suppose it’s the easy way out, but I just couldn’t see any other way. I really felt like the world was against me.’
The television personality has also spoken about his personal family life and often appears on Celebrity Gogglebox with his mother Linda.
Caring mum: It comes after Rylan revealed his body was ‘turned off’ and his mum Linda (pictured) was convinced he had a stroke amid his health struggles
The couple are “incredibly close” – but have never met their two half-brothers, although one lives not far from him in Essex. His father died a few years ago.
He also revealed he was close to doing the BBC series Who Do You Think You Are but said he couldn’t do it, adding that while he was interested, he was with what he got, was “happy”.
And now that he’s single, he told the magazine he once decided to download dating app Tinder – but the company blocked his profile as they believed it was a fake account.
He said his managers had to call Tinder bosses to make sure the real Rylan downloaded the app.
The 33-year-old TV host also shed some light on the celebrity world, harshly calling it “bullshit”.
He added that most of it is “so wrong” that you can have a lot of “buddies” while working in the industry but “few friends” because there is “no loyalty”.
In his school days, Rylan admitted he was severely bullied and described himself as a “chubby, red-headed, gay” kid.
Once, when he was 13, one of the thugs kicked him in the head so hard that he fractured his skull.
Sing Your Heart Out: His new book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future, named in reference to his ten years since appearing on The X Factor (pictured during audition)
In his new book Ten: The Decade That Changed My Future, named for the ten years since he appeared on The X Factor, he writes of his post-breakup mental health breakdown: “For the first time in my 32 years, I felt myself couldn’t go on.
‘What’s the point?’ I thought. I had lost what I thought was everything, the only thing I ever wanted. A man I loved. A family of my own. And now it was gone.
“So I tried to end it. I won’t go into detail as I don’t think it’s fair to my mother, but thank god I was unsuccessful.
He added that he had told Dan that he had cheated on him: “I woke up one morning and decided to tell my now ex that I cheated on him years ago. He went. Told me it was over and that was it.’
He added: “I have no excuses for what I did then, but I had my reasons. The reality is that over the course of my relationship I had started to feel wrong: I felt wrong for being successful, wrong for being me.
“Everyone around me could see that things weren’t quite right. ‘You shouldn’t feel like this.’ ‘Why are you doing that?’ ‘You know this isn’t normal, right?’ But he was my partner. someone i loved They couldn’t say anything because I would have always been on his side.’
After being hospitalized, he was given an injection that helped him beat more regularly.
He explained, “I just remember the shot and all of a sudden this feeling from the middle of your body in both directions almost overwhelms you and you just stop and my heart stops.”
Formerly: When he was at school, Rylan revealed he was severely bullied and described himself as a ‘chubby, redhead and gay’ kid (pictured).
“There’s just seven faces and this bright light looking at me. And then I took a deep breath. And they said, “He’s in a normal rhythm.”
“I was like, ‘What the hell is going on?'”
He went on to say that family members are convinced he just has heartbreak, but he’s certain it’s more serious.
“I knew it wasn’t right. Turns out my heart needed a restart. I remember lying in resus and having all these pads with all these wires and not understanding what it was.
He continued, “It was only after that I said, ‘What were the pads for?’ And they said, ‘If you hadn’t caught your breath, we would have had to restart you electrically. You don’t even think about that when you’re there. So not only did I get mentally ill, I got physically ill.
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