Victoria Beckham has admitted she was annoyed with her husband after he turned her life into a “circus”.
After David Beckham moved to Spain to play for Real Madrid, the footballer faced claims that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos.
Victoria and her children Brooklyn and Romeo then relocated from the UK to be by David’s side, where the family faced intense scrutiny, Spanish media hounding them and fans invading their lives.
Speaking about the experience on David’s new Netflix documentary series BECKHAM, Victoria confessed: ‘Did I indulge in David?’ If I’m being completely honest, yes, I did.’
It then cut to footage of the famous couple driving through Spain with their distraught son Brooklyn, who cried as overzealous fans banged on the window of their car.
‘I upset him’: Victoria Beckham admitted she was ‘the unhappiest she’s ever been’ after her David’s affair allegations turned her life into a ‘circus’ as she spoke on the BECKHAM Show
Allegations: After David Beckham moved to Spain to play for Real Madrid, the footballer faced allegations that he had an affair with his personal assistant Rebecca Loos
David tried to comfort Brooklyn by announcing, “It’s okay, Buster, they can’t get in the car,” while Victoria reassured him by saying, “It’s okay, Mommy’s got you.”
Looking forward to today, Victoria candidly admitted: “If I’m being honest, it’s probably the unhappiest thing I’ve ever experienced in my life.”
“It wasn’t that I went unheard, I chose to internalize a lot of it because I was always aware of the focus he needed.”
David also suffered from this, his performances on the pitch came under scrutiny and Real Madrid lost four games in a row for the first time.
At the start of the fourth and final episode of the documentary, Victoria spoke for the first time about the pain she suffered following allegations about her husband David’s alleged affair.
Almost 20 years after it was claimed he and his personal assistant became close while he was playing for Real Madrid in Spain, Victoria revealed the months since were the “hardest” of her life and she no longer feels the same way have like the couple each other’.
Meanwhile, David admitted he still doesn’t know how they got through the 2003 crisis, but he and his former Spice Girl wife knew they had to “fight for their family” and said they felt as if they were “drowning” as their high-profile marriage was in the headlines for months.
The former England captain also revealed that he “felt physically ill every day” as he and Victoria battled to save their marriage.
Scary: The show then showed footage of the famous couple driving through Spain with their distraught son Brooklyn, who cried as overzealous fans pounded their car
Shocking: David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca was revealed in the now-defunct News Of The World (Rebecca Loos pictured in 2004)
In a very candid interview in the fourth and final episode, Victoria appeared to be fighting back tears when asked if it was the most difficult time in her marriage. “100 percent,” she admitted. “It was the most difficult time for us. Because it felt like the world was against us.
“If I’m being completely honest, we were against each other.” Until Madrid, it sometimes felt like we were against everyone else, but we were together, we were connected, we had each other. But when we were in Spain, I didn’t really feel like we knew each other either. And that’s sad. I can’t tell you how hard it was. And how it affected me.’
David stunned the world when his alleged relationship with Rebecca was revealed in the now-defunct News Of The World newspaper. At the time, Victoria had decided to stay in the UK so that her young sons Brooklyn and Romeo could stay in their schools. The decision left David lonely and he admits he struggled.
He said: “When I first moved to Spain it was difficult because I had been part of a club and a family throughout my career, from the age of 15 until I was 27. I’m sold overnight, the next minute I’m sold.” I’m in a city and I don’t speak the language. More importantly, I had no family.
“Every time we woke up we felt like there was something else… we both felt at that point that we weren’t losing each other, but drowning.”
When asked how their marriage survived, David shared that he was afraid to play football while his wife struggled to find a way out of her crisis.
Shaking his head, he said, “Honestly, I don’t know how we got through it.” Victoria means everything to me. It was incredibly difficult to see her hurt, but we are fighters and back then we had to fight for each other, we had to fight for our family.
“And what we had was worth fighting for.” There were days when I woke up and thought, “How am I going to go to work?” How do I get to the training ground? How am I supposed to look like everything’s okay?’ I felt physically sick every day when I opened my eyes. “How am I supposed to do that?”
The crisis prompted Victoria to move to Madrid, where they bought a £3million house, which she says she decorated herself. She later gave birth to the couple’s third son, Cruz, now 18, in the Spanish capital.
Victoria described her time in Madrid as a “nightmare” and “an absolute circus”, while David said the school run was “live on Spanish TV”.
The designer admitted she was always perceived as a “villain” by Spanish football fans for not moving there with David straight away, and insisted she was only going along with it until she found suitable schools for her sons Brooklyn and Romeo had found.
Describing the moment David shared the news of their move in the documentary’s third episode, Victoria replied: “What do you mean we’re going to Spain?”
‘[David] said, “We’re going to Spain,” when? “In about 12 hours!”
Victoria added: “I thought, ‘What do you mean? We have no place to live, we have no schools for the children. What do you think?” But the reality is that we moved to Spain.”
When asked what she thought of the move, Victoria replied: “Not ideal.”
Victoria admitted that Spanish fans found it difficult to connect with her, especially after it was reported that she doesn’t like Spain because it “smells like garlic”, something she denied ever saying.
“For the most part, I was always the bad guy,” she said.
“It was never about Spain, we had a family to think about.” I had two children, Brooklyn and Romeo, and no one seemed to take that into account when I was criticized from the start for not being in Spain .
“A child has to go to school, I knew I couldn’t move until I had a school for Brooklyn.” I was in London Monday through Friday and then hopped on a plane to Spain.
“But everything was made up and taken out of context. “It was never about Spain.”